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yobabies, old lint herein's gradually getting rolled into the pockets of navelgazer over yonder. just sayin'.
yobabies, old lint herein's gradually getting rolled into the pockets of navelgazer over yonder. just sayin'.
there's a gathering down at a friend's family place in georgia or louisiana, a reunion of sort of generations of good girlfriends long parted organized around a marriage or some other event. there are myriad sweet and homely activities around about the house, both specifically preparing and also just for savoring. I go down to the swampy waterside with one of the older women and sit on the dock where we're visited by manatees who thrust their short elephant snout fingers up through the water to investigate us newcomers. then there are odd and comical ground foul running through the brush who have scattered-looking downy, sunset-colored plumage with bright orange stripes running down their breasts. I ask my companion what they are, and she says some ridiculous name that marks their derivation from both wombats and something else silly, nonsensically two land mammals, and that someone introduced them to the area from australia years ago.
I enter a house hanging on the edge of a cliff to rescue a tin box of letters and papers. the ocean has come up over the lip of the cliff and covered the grass where we were formerly sitting. an older man (our teacher? the descendant?) and I have taken off our shoes to go retrieve what's left. the old house is tippy, precarious, and our added weight causes it to shift alarmingly, so we step back across the old wood floor gingerly-- I find the letters, though they're somewhat scattered. mostly they seem to be innocuous and not much worth the effort of saving-- routine classmate valentines and such-- there's a good deal I may just throw away-- the at the bottom are a few pieces that seem more meaningful-- there's a sheaf with handwritten messages from all my friends, expressing concern and care over my dark mood, and then there's a folded-up piece of my own writing-- I stuff it all back into the box and resolve to review it later on outside the tipping, sliding house. my companion is still working on his own search, so I poke around a little and discover an old handbag belonging to the former tenant-- it hales from another era and seems to me to be redolent of history and character-- it's a large satchel type bag, and I'm imagining its owner, thinking how it's just the sort of bag a lady might use to carry a shawl in, and lo and behold, I reach inside and pull out a length of fabric-- which turns out instead to be a dress of deep blue and fascinating cut. the other guy has come over to see what I've found (there's the sense he has prior claim on the house's contents), and I hold up the dress to show him. I'm thinking I might be able to wear it, as the fabric is stretchy even though it at first appears quite narrow-waisted-- but he gives me a dismissive look, and I feel quite horrible suddenly, though I play it off and offer the dress to him, telling him it would make an intriguing piece of art hung on a wooden hander on the wall.
my grandmother has died, and they're having a memorial coffee at her house-- when I get there with my fanily, the place is packed with people I do not know, and my family members quickly disappear into the crowds. my grief lies heavy on me, and I don't have the emotional resources to make sense of this scene-- I wander around for a time, trying to do my best, but the shock of it all quickly undoes me: the people are all incredibly fancy and highbrow and important, and it becomes swiftly evident what an important person my grandmother was in the eyes of the world-- and the familiar, warm person I loved so dearly is nowhere evident-- except in small familiar knick-knacks that others are pawing and taking as mementoes-- I lose it at this point and start searching for my family to I can get the hell out-- they drove me here, and I feel utterly dependent on them for escape-- every room I enter has more mucky-mucks standing around talking about my grandmother in an urbane world context I don't recognize and generlly being very smart and cool and alien to me-- I begin to see my grandmother's possessions and life and accomplishments in a new light, but I'm in no shape to process it-- I just want my family to get me out of here-- I start calling out to them, "mooooo-ooooom... daaaaa-aaaaaad!!", quickly realizing how ineffectual these names are but keeping at it, growing desperate and plaintive. the cool people, fortunately are unflapped by my display and continue their conversations without a ripple-- I go on and on, calling, searching, unable to find my family, until the place starts to clear out and I realize the only possibility is that they have left without me. I collapse into a chair, utterly abandoned, and after a bit take notice of the bright shiny folk I've collapsed among-- they're young and cleverly dressed and effortlessly at ease and clearly successful and wealthy and bright-- a shining lot-- dusty me has fallen among them for better or worse. as they rise to move along, they offer me a ride, and with mixed mortification and relief I accept-- we board a dreadful concept vehicle with stadium seating and no safety whatsoever and proceed through town-- we're moving through the locales I grew up among, and I make some small comment about a change and then a heartbeat later do a double- and then triple-take and gape in utter shock as I realize how the place has been transformed-- there are now elaborate undulating glass constructions, hotel megaliths, with multistorey water features lining the road-- when I'm able to speack again, I exclaim, "my god! it's like las vegas!" my companions all nod and say, "yes" and "actually, I heard a statistic the other day that the businesses here see more activity than vegas"-- and a cool, unhurried, unamazed discussion ensues. I don't begin to know where I am.
rowing around on a dark lake with piney edges and dark, ragged, sudden dropoffs-- I am a passenger, two other women at the oars, and they drive the boat into a black cave-- I want them to stop, but they go further into the blackness-- we can hear others up ahead in the darkness, which makes it "okay", but I am not okay-- especially when the air fills with bats or even smaller whirring things all around my head-- I am panicking-- and finally we go back out.
we go to visit, my sister and I, the lady who lives in the old house on the floating island. the island rests on the water just about 30 feet offshore on lake superior and floats back and forth along the beach. there's little substance to the island itself, no stone to fasten a house's foundation to-- the lady's parents built the house many years previous when she was just a child-- like a gigantic doll's house, flimsy and romantic. there's a firepole and sweet porches-- one problem is that there's no staircase between the lower and upper floors, only a makeshift bookshelf she's contrived to climb for the purpose-- but it's loose and tricky. my sister insists that there once was a staircase and puzzles over the mystery, searches for it in vain. the woman in the house is blind and infirm, the house itself become a curiosity for tourists, hardly viable-- it seems it will crumble or tip and sink any day. we're negotiating for its sale to someone who wants such an ungainly elephant, but later I realize I want to keep it, fortify and restore it-- there's too much history there to forfeit it. nothing will grow in the little patch of garden, and I go out and start planting kernels of corn but stop when I realize I must first improve the soil and find better quality seed stock.
some people I ran into from my sketchy-cool neighborhood were going to some midnight show in an old theater building-- so I decided to venture out and go too since I knew people I knew would be there. it was a hipster scene, so I got all dressed up in my edgiest clothes-- tho I feared they were sadly out of date and low-quality and -rent. it was an enormous old space with industrial galvanized metal circular stairways between levels, and the place was packed with the uberhip, and I started to regret coming.